It’s 1am exactly and my alarm is set for 6am. That’s 5 hours until I’m expected to wake and tackle the day ahead. I have Beyoncé barre with DKNY Sport first thing, before heading to the agency to collect a package and have a catch up with my bookers. I’ll then come back to the apartment for a conference call, will work out- I’m thinking a run seeing as it’s forecast to be nice tomorrow- and then will sit down to tackle emails, work my way through an important contract, put in time on a secret project and scout new music for my spin classes. I’m planning to have a productive day, yet there’s one problem- I can’t fall to sleep.
Now, I’m a big believer in the power of sleep. Anything under 8 hours (7 at a push) and I’m not a happy girl. I’m not particularly grumpy when I’ve had a lack of sleep- well, not all of the time- but I do find that it affects me in other ways. For one, I’m less productive. Two, it shows in my eyes and if it’s anything under 4 hours for two consecutive nights or more, I begin to feel run down.
I want to be productive, I don’t want tired eyes and I definitely do not want to be ill. So, sufficient sleep is the answer.
Today I read an article that discussed whether we are able to have too much sleep. Surely not, I thought. However, I do sometimes find that if I oversleep (10 hours or more for me), that I feel lethargic for the rest of the day… Perhaps they have a point. Anyway, the article concluded that there is no definite answer to this and that sleep effects people in different ways.
I’m tired, I’m babbling on and quite frankly, I’m not too sure what I set out to write here. All I know is that I now have to be up in 4 hours and 49 minutes and I’m still no closer to drifting off. It’s not that I’m not tired because trust me, I am. What I think the problem is, is that I have a lot on my mind. Whether it’s down to last week’s lunar eclipse, the amount of uncertainty in my life right now, the fact that it’s my birthday this weekend and it’s suddenly sent me into a frenzy that I’m getting older, yet have some serious goals to smash and feel like time is moving quicker than I can eat a plate of Yorkshire puddings (and trust me, that’s quick), what I do know is that I’m feeling very on edge as of late.
Overall, it’s now 1.18am and I’m still awake yet I feel much less agitated after writing what I’ve written of this post so far. I’m confident that I’m going to succeed and exceed my goals, I’m truly happy as I am and with who I am, I have an incredible base of friends and family in my life and I have a lot to be thankful for. I’m human and have my worries, and sometimes I have sleepless nights where I feel upset for no reason. Tonight is one of them but tomorrow is a new day and no matter how much sleep I manage to get in tonight, I’ll be ready to take it on like a champ.
I guess my point is that we all have times where we feel a little down, overwhelmed or just in a mood for no god-damn reason. It could be down to my hormones- it’s that time of the month ya knowww- but in all honesty it doesn’t matter what it is. It’s natural and quite frankly, it’s needed. Basically, don’t worry if you’re not feeling 100% for whatever reason it may be. Tomorrow’s a new day and it’s yours to own!
If you’ve made it this far, well done. Honestly, a huge well done. Thanks for listening. I feel a little lighter. Now, let’s see if sleep will grace me with the same presence. Good night x